Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Diary of An Angry Obese Woman

So sorry I haven't blogged in awhile things had been going smoothly however we have hit an hiccup and I'm not happy about it I am kinda angry! By the way feel free to share this blog because quite honestly I'm going to be very real, very open, very honest and very blunt with my feelings on the insurance industry and a few other aspects of this process and I want it to really reach out there! I'm done being the one that get's pushed around, sat aside and treated like a number like nothing more than just another person. I refuse to sit by and watch others live their lives yet not live my fully the way God intended it to be lived. I refuse to take no for an answer and I will not back down nor will I swallow the costs of my appts thus far. So you see somewhere along the line my PCM failed to put in my referral with Tri Care like a good PCM, we all goof but this goof is going to cost me money out of pocket to cover my appts thus far with the weight loss clinic if it don't get fixed and if it don't get approved then my surgery wont get approved! I did not make the choice to have RNY gastric bypass lightly this took me YEARS and yes I mean YEARS to finally commit myself to this! And when I commit myself to something I don't let go of it easily! I almost let this defeat me I almost let go and almost gave up but you know what...not this one sorry! I am sick of how the average perception of the average obese person! We aren't all lazy slobs sorry I know many obese brothers and sisters and they are not either lazy or slobs! Sometimes we have things wrong with us that contribute to our weight gain issues. So the insurance companies like to complain that us obese people cost them more and more money for our medication, well then dear insurance company how about you give us a freaking hand when we are asking for help to lose the weight instead of making it hard to get the help some of us might require????? Why put us through so much stress do you not realize stress contributes to weight gain as well??? So my PCM attempted to right her wrong and put in the referral and well Tri Care rejected it cause they want more information okay game on Tri Care challenged accepted! I will get this I will make it happen I will not give into defeat, I will not let them tell me no not without a fight! So they wanted more information that is why they denied my request so I have an appt with my doctor my PCM tomorrow morning and I have compiled quite the list as to why I should be seen at the weight loss clinic once that get's done then the weight loss clinic can resubmit my information granted I am kinda furious with the mishandling of them not ensuring they had the referral I assumed since they made my appts and knew what insurance I had they had approval for it, also I assumed that since they checked my records four times that they had it cause they didn't mention that being missing. They will hear about my thoughts about their poor office management at a later time first things first! Here is my list of health issues that aren't helped by my obesity and why I need to lose weight and why I DESERVE the help I want and am requesting!
To whom it may concern please find a list of past, present and possible future health issues that can be linked to my morbid obesity in no certain order:
1. Diagnosed with PCOS in 2008 while living in the UK was sent to an endocrinologist when I couldn't lose anymore weight. There should be a referral back in Tri Care somewhere as I was referred to an off base provider. I was told by that Endocrinologist that I had PCOS and that I'd never loose all the weight I needed to lose without weight loss surgery but yet I told him nah I wasn't buying that because I was not ready to commit myself to that drastic of measures, though now after years of trying and failing I am more than ready willing and able.
2. My hands, feet and ankle have sever swelling.
3. Major joint pain in my knees, hip,feet and also my back as well as numbness in my feet.
4. I have had on two different occasions cellulitus first case in 2002 latest case in 2012 which left me hospitalized for a whole week at Toumey hospital here in Sumter,SC the attending physican told me that if I'd lose some weight that it would lessen my chances of yet another occurrence.
5. 2001-2013 I have battled mild depression due to my obesity I am not happy and to be honest I have probably been depressed the vast majority of my life due to my weight but I have been medicated for it off and on between 2001-2013.
6. Feb 2012 I had kidney stones which it has been proven in studies that obesity doesn't help that issue either.
7. My family medical history alone should convince anyone that I need help before it get's worse than it has been both parents are diabetics, both parents have high blood pressure, high cholesterol and heart disease. This is my future should I not get help which will cost my insurance company dearly in medication and possible hospital stays should I not get the help I need and deserve!
8. 2012 I had my gallbladder my weight could have contributed to that as well.
9. I have really bad acid reflux/gerd water even gives me reflux.
10. I currently have a hiatal hernia as well which can be associated with obesity from what I have read online.
11. I have tried many many times to lose weight on my own, I could, and probably should write a book with all the knowledge I have gained through lots of reading, research and trying different things to lose weight.
12. My BMI is around 48.4 (that should say it all right there)
13. My thyroid has nodules and obesity has been linked to the cause of nodules top that with the fact I have a family medical history of hypo and hyperthyroidism.
14. Irregular menstrual cycles (which can be linked to the PCOS)
15.Vitamin D deficiency which can also cause some weight gain.
16. Fatty Liver awhile back I had bloodwork and my bilirubin was a little off and I was given and ultrasound which showed some fat around my liver.
17. Pre-cancerous cervical cells were found in 2001 and I was treated succesfully but that is even linked to obesity as well.
So many reason's that I should be approved...good valid reasons! I wont give up they are going to get so sick of me I remember the old adage the squeaky wheel get's the grease...I don't like complaining and I don't like having to fight but I will do what I have to do to ensure things go this way because I see it as a way to add years to my life, time with my husband, time with my children and my future grandchildren. I see it as my opportunity to live my life for a change I have hid almost 40 years behind this body, I have felt not accepted, not good enough, unworthy and I refuse to carry that another 40 years. People fail to see the real person underneath the fat...they don't see or know the tears I have cried because I didn't feel accepted or acceptable. They don't know how bad it hurt to be picked last because you were fat and all that drama that goes along with it. For once I want to know what it feels like to be just a normal person in a normal body and not looked at like a side show freak. This is my chance to make my life better and I wont let any stupid insurance company or any stupid error on the part of my PCM or on the part of the clinic stand in my way! I am going after what I deserve with a bull dog tenacity. I hope that if you are reading this and you ever find yourself in my position that you NEVER give up NEVER back down and don't take NO for an answer.

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