16 Weeks Post Op......

Yeah I know I have gotten slack in my blogging lately my apologies, things have been pretty rough personally around here and I have been in a funk since we've dealt with 2 funerals, a broke down truck, and moving my eldest back in and other bits of drama that I will not and do not care to share on here and let's face it, that just isn't needed. All of this drama and other bits are in God's hands now and it's time to talk about weight loss! Monday I was 16 weeks post op woo hoo!! I lost 4 pounds this past week yay!!! Which brought me to 232!!!!!! I am now 7 pounds away from my first big goal of 100 pounds gone forever!!! I am 7 points from being considered overweight and not obese bigger woo hooo I have been obese FOREVER so it seems so the day I get to just overweight it will be a major accomplishment for me! So I started out in March at 325, date of surgery I was 288 and now I am 232 for a total of 93 pounds lost since March and 56 of that lost since August 19th! I am wearing size 16 jeans when I started out I was in 26/24's I am now in xl/large tops when I started out I was in 3X tops! Of course there are things about the new me I don't like the skin on my neck lol and my sagging upper arms but hey I'd rather deal with that than be the 325 pound woman I was before starting this journey!  I have no regrets about this surgery at all! I'm doing decent with my eating I can tolerate more things, and I hope to get into the gym this coming week after we get all this moving stuff settled down, but it seems every time I plan on starting at the gym something throws a monkey wrench into the deal so I am praying that I can get there! :-) Well that's all I have for now I hope you all are doing well and have a wonderful and Merry Christmas!!!

Three Months Post Op

So hello friends I am behind on blogging and I apologize but my family and I have had two weeks of unimaginable pain and grieving heaped upon us. Last week I lost my Granny so it was run home to NC for her funeral total sadness even though we knew it was going to happen. I miss her dearly she meant a lot to me to say the very least. Then this week my older three's grandpa died so it was back to NC for his funeral which was yesterday, what a sad couple of day's it has been, so hard to watch my older three go through this hard to watch my ex husband and his family go through this, hard for me as well he was my father in law for 12 years and was always good to me, because well that's just who he was even after my ex husband and I divorced he still treated me like family and I'm going to miss seeing him around ever so often. So as you see these couple of weeks have been rough! So I'm sorry I have gotten behind on my blogging. I did have fun last weekend though got to spend time with three awesome friends, did some shopping with them and Diana was awesome and brought me some clothes she has shrunk out of yay!
In weight loss news today I said goodbye to the 240's and now I'm in the 230's woo hoo!! I am now down 87 pounds since March but have lost 50 of that since August 19th that is 50 pounds in THREE MONTHS wow!!!! Unbelievable!!!! I am so happy because in times past of dieting and exercising I have only made it to 250 so when I made it to the 240's I was happy now that I'm in the 230's I feel over the moon happy like I can truly do this! I have no regrets about my choice of Gastric Bypass only that I wish I had done it sooner but that's okay I'll be fit and fabulous by 40! ;-) Going to enjoy my life because it's short and we are not promised tomorrow so I'm going to make the most out of my right now!
Other special achievements:
1. I can cross my legs like a lady ;-)
2. I now have visible collar bones
3. The Iron they put me on is starting to make me feel better energy wise.
4. I can put on a large shirt though it's still snug on me so I wont wear it in public lol
5. I have a neck now!
So that's the scoop y'all! I hope everyone out there is doing well! I'll catch up with y'all later!
<3 Me

10 Weeks Post Op (running behind lol)

Hello everyone!! My blog is a few day's late sorry bout that started painting in the house this week trying to get stuff ready so eventually we can sale the house! So this week I lost 2 more pounds I am praising God I haven't had a stall yet every week I've lost something be it a pound or more and I have been thankful! Over the the left is a picture of me when I started this journey in March and over to the left is me now! I am down 79 pounds since that picture to the right was taken and I have a NECK now! I'm 42 pounds down since August 19th, and yesterday I tried on a size 16 jeans and they fit you can see those in the picture on the right along with my XL Sons of Anarchy shirt my sweet hubby bought me! <3  Now however I will be wearing my 18's for awhile longer as I have but one pair of 16's lol but that's okay I have a friend who is donating to my cause (cause I'm running out of clothes lol) I am enjoying losing weight and I am thrilled that things are going well. However I still see the girl over to the left of the picture when I look in the mirror I mean the first time I saw a full body shot the other week a friend took for me with my hubby and 2 of my kids I had to pull my 16 year old in the room and ask her do I really look like that? Kinda funny yet kinda of sad I know many people struggle with the girl they see in the mirror no matter how much weight they lose. I hope one day my view of myself changes, and that girl over there to the left will quit jumping out in front of me when I look at myself in the mirror. I mean I do feel a little but more confidant these days but still... I did have my check up last week and the doctor was pleased with my progress thus far so yay! I'm waiting to hear back on my lab work praying all my vitamins and etc are doing well! Oh another couple of realizations for me this weigh in:

1. 21 more pounds and I will have lost 100 pounds yay!!!

2. 47 more pounds and I will be in ONDERLAND I'd love to reach that by Christmas but I don't think I will it would be amazing however I just don't see it happening it's November already but I think I"ll be really close though!

Well that's all I have for this week friends chat with you later take care and God Bless you all! <3

9 Weeks Post Op

Well good morning y'all! Today I am officially 9 weeks post op!! I am down 2 more pounds this week which puts me at 250 I had honestly thought I'd be under 250 this week but hey I'll take those 2 pounds I lost happily cause that puts me at 75 pounds total since March and a total of 38 since August 19th! I have a check up on the 23rd with my surgeon so I am hoping that by then I'll be under 250, I'll update y'all after my appointment! In other news as always life is stressful, please keep me in your prayers as I really really need them and truly appreciate them! I'm going to start painting the house (inside this week) so we can get the show on the road the goal is to have the house market ready by the first of the year and hopefully it will sale quickly and me and the kiddos can move to Beaufort to be with Wayne in a new place all together that would be awesome! Well until later y'all! <3 Me

52 Pounds till....ONEDERLAND

Hello friend's another blog why? Because I can of course! While pondering how far I have come and how far I have left to go I realize that I'm only 52 pounds away from what many obese/overweight people strive for and that is blessed ONEDERLAND!! I have not weighed under 200 pounds probably since elementary school. I am super excited considering I have lost 73 pounds already 52 seems just like a drop in the bucket so to speak! Though I'm sure there will be stalls between me and the next 52 pounds but I can't wait till I get on the scale and see a ONE instead of a TWO! I can't possibly explain that excited me of just thinking about my goals being attainable now when once they were no where near attainable! Life get's better day by day even on day's when some foods give me issues! Also I went on a most lovely hike with my husband yesterday we had such fun he and I don't get much alone time but a little alone time and some exercise is a great way to spend the morning!  Well that is all I have for now have a grrrreat day! <3 Me

Me hiking yesterday :-)

Eight Weeks Post Op

Good morning friends, family and anyone else who might happen to stumble across my blog! Well today I am 8 weeks post op!! I am down 36 pounds in the last eight weeks!! But I'm down a grand total of 73 pounds since March!! Just a few more pounds to go and I'll be out of the 250's forever and ever Amen! I am super excited another 4 pounds gone this week!! To celebrate I think me and my husband shall go for a hike or a nice long walk just the two of us since he is off today I got to have him for a 3 day weekend yay! It is always nice to have a little longer with him, we sure do miss having him around the house! I finished up my classes last night so therefore I can start putting some time and effort into more exercise time for me and also into some working on fixing this house up so we can put the house on the market and move out of here and relocate to Beaufort so we can all be a family under one roof cause this get's hard on both ends Wayne's end of things and my end of things and the kiddos miss daddy in their lives daily, but it's a sacrifice we make so we can pay the bills, we are use to making sacrifices but it sure would be nice to be a full time family it get's hard to play the role of mommy, daddy and student all at the same time I am stretched way too thin most days. Anyway the picture I used for my blog this morning was taken at my friends Amy &Alex's wedding this Saturday and I couldn't believe that, that was me in the picture I know it's common for anyone who looses weight not to identify with the person in the picture because that's now who I see in the mirror I still see the 325 pound woman in fact I had to ask Annie do I really look like that? Funny how our real image vs. our self image never matches up! Just for a reality check I'll include a picture taken of me around this time last year at the end of my blog just for a little comparison. I hope you all have a great week this week!! Take care, God Bless! <3 Me

This picture is of me and Amy at last years Fall Festival at church!
 

Week 7 Post Op

Well I think blogger is finally going to allow me to post I guess it must have been something to do with hubby's computer! So here I am 7 weeks post op well that was Monday today is Friday! Well Monday I weighed in at 256 pounds so that gave me a 4 pound loss for week 7! I started out in March at 325 and now I'm at 256 that's a total of 69 pounds gone since then!! But day of surgery I was 288 so that puts me down 32 pounds in 7 weeks to me that is awesome! I have lost more this week as well but I have been sick to so I haven't been able to eat like I should! I have truly been struggling to get in all my protein and water y'all pray for me to get this right I don't want to have any other health issues because I can't manage my food and water! My size 20's are getting a little roomy but still not small enough for my 18's just yet but I imagine I'll be in them in another week or two it's crazy cause after that I'll be out of clothes lol I'll have to find some cash somewhere to hit up the Goodwill store yes Goodwill cause I'm not entertaining investing in brand new clothes till I'm done losing weight that is my treat for reaching my goal weight which is somewhere between 160-150 pounds and I have about 90-100 pounds left to go sounds like a lot but heck I'm down 69 right now so to me I have accomplished a lot already and I will continue to do so! After next Monday I'll be 8 weeks post op and I should be able to lift and do what I like! I think my sense of being hungry is finally coming back now if I can get the sense of being full to kick in so I don't over do it I'm keeping it small amounts though. Well that's about all I have to update on currently I'll see y'all on Monday and I'm so glad I got this account working I was dreading transferring all my stuff over to another blog area. So have a great weekend take care and God Bless! <3 Me

Weeks 5&6 Post Op

Hello friends and family! I hope that you all are doing well today! I am so sorry for not updating my blog but life has been busy really busy and really stressful with Wayne working away and me being mommy and daddy at home, moving my oldest and her husband out and trying to stay on top of school yes I have been stressed I still am! Please keep us in your prayers that we get this house together and sold I did purchase some of the paint I need to get started on painting the inside of the house so I will hopefully do some of that this coming week as my classes are coming to a close which I am thrilled about! Anyways on week 5 I lost a pound then week 6 I lost another pound this past Monday was week six which brought me to 28 pounds gone since surgery and a total of 65 gone since march and I was weighing 260 pounds yesterday! Well I did my measurements and I was down 7 inches this time woo hooo and my BMI when I started was 52.5 and now it is 42 so that is down 10 points, granted I'm still considered "obese" but I'm getting there! Well most of you know I am a scale junkie I try and try to break the habit but alas no success in that area well I hopped on my good old trusty scale and low and behold I was down 2 more pounds today I am out of the 260's here's where it's going to get interesting I have been down to 250 before and couldn't lose anymore so here it is if I lose past 250 I shall do the happy happy dance and cartwheels or handstands so since this mornings weigh in lol I am down 30 pounds since August 19th, and 67 pounds since March! I am super excited I hope the rate of weight loss stays the same as it is so far this week but if I only lose those two pounds I'll take them because that's 2 pounds less that I have to worry about ever again! In other news I got to walk with a good online friend of mine today finally got to meet Lydia after years of chatting on facebook she is such a sweetie and is doing pretty darn awesome herself!!! She looks amazing! Other than that the government shut down is effecting us a little we still haven't seen Wayne's retirement yet though they say we will get it others have got their retirement pay I guess we will wait it out and see and trust in the Lord he always provides away for us and for that I am thankful God has held our hands so many times when we have faced hard times and I'm sure he will continue to do so! Well I hope you all are doing well but that's all I got for now! <3 Me

4 Week's Post Op

Well last week I spent the week gaining and losing the same pound which was really annoying me. But today when I did my officially down 4 more pounds this week bringing my total the last 4 weeks to 26 pounds gone forever! I am at 262 just a few more pounds and I'll be in the 250's woo hooo! But I have lost a total of 63 pounds since March of this year so from 325 to 262 awesomeness! Can't wait to see how much I can lose by Christmas!! 
In other news I bought myself a pretty Orange Bicycle today woo hoo gonna race around the neighborhood so the dogs want chase me down the street ha ha ha! Also about to invest in some new shoes or a new hair do who knows! Got my medical ID bracelet ordered and some unflavored protein to see how I like that think I'll get me some fresh berries and what not and hook myself on up and have something a little different! So that's my news for this week I hope you all are doing well! <3 

3 Weeks Post-op Weigh In Time

Well here I sit three weeks post op today, and I am pleased to report I lost 5 pounds this past week! No it's not the 17 pounds I lost last week but every week can't be big number weeks! I'm thankful for every pound that is gone forever! So that puts me at 266 today out of the 270's and I am praying next week will find me out of the 260's! I have lost a total of 22 pounds since my surgery and a grand total of 59 pounds since I started my weight management in March woo hoo! I am so happy, I find myself feeling better, less depressed, I do my hair and make up more and I feel better about myself. Also I am now out of my size 22 jeans they will be rehomed this week! And I actually put on a 1x shirt yesterday and it FIT!!! If I could have done cartwheels I would have! I am so looking forward to each week and what it can hold, I know there will be weeks coming up where the weight loss will stall I'm prepared for that mentally because I know what to expect thanks to great friends who have informed me and encouraged me. Although I am sure I'll pout a little but hey I know it'll get started up again! I need to focus on getting my walking in more and more this past week has been busy so I didn't do as much as I should have so this week no excuses I will get in at least one good walk a day if not two. I don't care how much work I have to do! Speaking of work I have papers I need to do today because I did other work that was due for my classes last night and I got too sleepy so my morning/afternoon will be spent on my computer working away but hey after that I can breath easy!! Well that's my update I hope you all are doing well!!
<3 Me

2 Weeks Post Op

Hello friends!!! Hope you are all doing well!!! Well today makes 2 weeks since my surgery I am feeling lots better hardly no soreness maybe a twinge ever so often. I do get tired faster than I normally would Doctor said it was the effects of that anesthesia and it would wear off in time and I'd get my ability to not tire so quickly back. Although last week I was bursting at the seams with energy but couldn't do much with it lol, my post op check up went great I have another appt on Sept 11th he was pleased with what I had lost and when I saw him I had only lost 10 pounds since surgery but as of right now since last Monday when I got back to my pre-op weight I am down from 288 to 271 for 17 pounds gone in a week! But a grand total of 54 pounds gone forever since March of this year yay me!!! I know this week probably will not yield 17 pounds but I am thankful for the 17 that are gone forever now just as I'll be thankful for whatever I lose this week! I know there will be stalls but I know they will end and pass unlike my epic 4-5 mth stalls I had when I was working on weight loss before!  And on another note I was allowed to have mushy food and I have been able to tolerate everything I have tried so far so that is awesome, hopefully this will continue to be how it works! I guess that is pretty much all the news I currently have!! Just figured I'd do a small update! Hope you all have a great day!! <3 Me

1 Week and 1 Day Into This Journey

Hello everyone!! Well today I'm one week and one day post op!! I am doing well my left side is a wee bit sore but that's because that is where most of the work is done it's manageable but still at moments feels like a donkey kicked me in the ribs but this too shall pass and I will get stronger and better everyday! I made it back to my pre-op weight yesterday so woot woot I was 288 Monday morning when I stepped on the scale but I stepped on the scale today and I had lost about 4 more pounds putting me at 284 how exciting! Remembering I started this journey out in March weighing 325 pounds I am like 9 pounds away from the first 50 pounds being gone how awesome is that???? I will do a comparison picture the day I loose my first 50 and I think that's how I will roll every 50 pounds or maybe 25 depending on my mood but right now with my first 50 being just a hand grab away I'll wait for those 9 pounds to say adios to me. It's amazing how much life can change going from saying you'll never do this to actually doing it. I never saw the surgery as a cop out or an easy way out trust me on that one I just didn't know that I could commit to it because let me tell you there is not one thing easy about this no sir, no mam and if you think it is perhaps you should study up on what we have to do forever and ever Amen in order for our tool to work or maybe you should ask someone to explain how food has to be measured, how we have to stay on top of our vitamins and etc, how we do have to work out and we do have to make right food choices for ourselves.Only after spending about 34-35 years of my life being overweight/obese did I make this choice at the age of 39 to do this, part of me wishes I didn't wait now but the logical part of me says Lori, all things in God's time he had to prepare my mind and me to be ready for this big of a commitment. Make no mistake about it when I decided to go through with this I did so seeking God's wisdom for me and seeking his mercy and grace to get me through it and he indeed did. I will admit at the end of the waiting game when my best friends and pastor had prayed with me and they were getting ready to leave cause they were going to wheel me away fear sat in I almost cried because of that fear of what if I didn't wake up what about my babies and my husband but I remembered that God was with me and that I sought him through out this journey to RNY Gastric Bypass, I remembered that he would never leave me or forsake me and most of all my key scripture that I have applied to my life over the last year Jeremiah 29:11-13. The only things I can recall after thinking all of that is making it to the OR scooting over to the operating bed, being strapped down and breathing in the lovely stuff they put you to sleep with a few hours later I woke up to quadrupedal vision lol seemed like there was four of the nurse and clock across from me ha! I did well with no issues and I have tolerated everything I have been allowed to eat thus far I am looking forward though to being able to have some pureed foods soon man this full liquid diet is getting old but I'm working on getting in all my fluids and all my protein that is needed and I'm getting there day by day it's an adjustment. I have started taking small walks, learning to get use to my nasty breath which let me warn y'all who are thinking about the surgery with scope there is hope lol!!! Please don't breath on your friends, family, pets or other small animals you may encounter cause whew wee! But this is known as ketosis when your body is burning off all that fat so that's why the breath is kickin'! Well I should be writing several papers so I'm going to close this blog out for now have my check up on Friday morning at 10:30 who knows maybe I'll get to add food wouldn't that be awesome some pureed foods yay Lori all things in time though! I'm thankful for this opportunity and I am thankful for all that God does for me and my family and all he will continue to do God is good....all the time!

So On The Other Side Of Things......

Well today is Saturday I am now 6 day's post op I did well with my surgery. I was at 288 pounds pre-op came home Wednesday I came home from the hospital and weighed myself and I weighed 305 pounds post op and I knew that was going to happen due to the IV fluids, gasses and etc. Today I'm back down to 295 pounds so not too far from my pre-op weight! Boy I am so thankful I had friends who had this done and warned me ahead of time or I would be depressed right about now lol!! The only things that has me feeling bad right now is I am sick of soup!!!! The taste and texture of it blah! Friday is my follow up appt I'm praying he tells me I can try other stuff! But hey it is what it is and this is just a short period of time and better days are coming! :-) I am so thankful for the wonderful friends I have care pages from Melissa, then Lydia & Diana! Then Judy and Heather brought my mama here to help take care of my babies and then they took me to the hospital and stayed with me until I was released those are some great friends and family right there y'all I am blessed!! I love them and appreciate everyone who helped me out in the past week! I really am not hungry I make myself eat even though I don't want to eat which is a new experience. Well I am going to get off of here and rest a bit just wanted to shoot an update! Hope you all are doing great!!! <3 y'all!

Make It Happen

Hello friends!! Well only 4 more day's to go till my big day! One week after my 39th birthday is my surgery date kinda neat I think ya know my surgiversary will be right after my 40th birthday! I am going to take this tool that I am being given and make the most of it and by my 40th birthday I am going to be a whole other woman! I plan on having an awesome year this year and I'm planing on feeling fabulous on my 40th! I'm looking forward to new things and exciting possibilities! Things have all fallen into place though I hit a few snags here and there one with Tricare and then some other little tiny bits but I have now got everything in place! My mama will be here with my babies to make sure that they are alright thank God for mama's right?!? Two of my bestest friends ever are coming down Sunday bringing my mama to me and they are taking me for my surgery and bonus they are staying with me at the hospital gotta love best friends like that I don't know what I'd do without my girls!! I love them! My best friend Melissa was going to come but stuff came up that she had to attend to and I totally understand and I know that she'd be here if she could and I know she'll be thinking about me and praying for me! I love my friends they are the best! My oldest daughter will be driving my babies back and forth to school so they don't have to ride the bus and I don't have to worry about them missing the stop or mama having to walk out the the street with her feet and ankles giving her a fit so thankful Katie will be here to do that love you baby!! My other kids will be pitching in and so will Kyle to help out around the house they agreed to so now a little less stress. I don't have to worry about a thing! I am excited, anxious and nervous I mean hello it is surgery and they are rerouting my digestive system so yeah...there has been noise in the background...Lori are you sure you want to do this thoughts...Lori you know you love you some food and you know you are going to miss xy and z...but I have found myself saying...no I wont miss it and in time I'll be able to eat like a "normal" person and I'll be retrained to make the right and better choices for myself. The thoughts of something going wrong yep it comes to mind I wont lie I have a family I love friends I love kids I want to grow up but also if I stay this way I run the same risk of having a heart attack and it taking me out as well. So there's risk to changing there's risks to remaining the same and I truly want to be able to do more and enjoy more with my children. I want to feel like playing in the park and doing fun things and I want to be able to be all that I can be as a mother and wife without my weight getting in my way! I know God will watch over me I have talked to him every step of the way and I know Jeremiah 29:11-13 Tells me that he knows the plans he has for me and they are to prosper not to harm I believe in these words with all my heart and soul and I know who holds me in the palm of his hands! So here it goes in 4 more day's we are going to make it happen there will be no more sitting on the sidelines and not feeling good and not feeling worthy, and not being everything I can be for my family, friends and most of all for myself for a change! So on August 19th at 1PM I'll be going in for my surgery so pray for me and the medical staff that will be taking care of me, for my family and my friends as well! I'll talk to y'all later!! <3 Y'all!

All Systems Are Go!

Haven't updated my blog in a bit not since I got the big news sorry! I know most of you who are reading this are on my facebook so you already know but those who aren't on my facebook here is the big news! My insurance has been approved to see my surgeon and my surgeons referral for surgery has been approved! Now I am a mixture of nervous and excited! Ready to get this started and see the awesome results from the surgery and my hard work cause yep some people do live with the misconception that this is the easy way out but it's not I still have to put forth effort I still have to choose to eat right, I still have to choose to exercise the weight doesn't lose itself! This is just a tool to add to what I have been trying to do since forever! If you see from my lovely diagram that I have posted this will help so many issues I have or don't have already but I have a few of these already and I'm ready to be rid of them! I do realize the surgery comes with risk potential but so does staying the way that I am. I have asked God to guide and lead me if this is his will for my life. There was only one stumbling block put in my way and it was easily removed. So I'm going into this knowing that God has made my way to this point and that he holds me and my future in his hands and he will allow nothing to touch me that hasn't gone through him first!  So August 2nd at 9:30AM I have my pre-op appt and on August 5th I start my extremely low carb diet only 20 grams of carbs a day (pray for me pray for those around me) and on August 19th at 1pm is my date and time for surgery! Wayne will be away working at his new job kinda nervous not having him there with me but I have friends who will be there for me and I am grateful for them. This is a big season of changes for our family please keep us all in your prayers. <3

All Systems Go...

So after all is said and done, after all the being upset. I finally found out just what was wrong and why my PCM referral wasn't going through, and wouldn't you know it just as soon as I got that fixed boom my surgery was approved! Wow this just became really real! All the appointments, I have been through the last five months paid off! I finally came that close and grabbed that golden ring so to speak, after a life time of almost but not quite you know..it feels weird I was extremely happy when I saw both referrals go through yet now I feel really nervous about the surgery, it is major surgery I suppose this is a normal feeling to be having, second guesses...but I know I have asked God for his favor in this and I have sought him and I trust in him to continue to lead me through this process. I asked for his will not my own, though I did fight for it a little by seeing to my referral being put in properly. I have a surgeon that doesn't just put me in his hands but he puts me in God's hands and you know that to me is very reassuring and comforting to know my doctor though he went to medical school and though he practices medicine and does all these surgery's still talks to the almighty, the one true God and trust him with me as well as him. My life is fixing to change big time and I'm praying it is for the good! That all will go smoothly and that I'll recover and lose the weight I need to and live the life with my family that I want to live! I'm tired of aches and pains I want to be free, I want to be happy, I don't want to feel other people's judgmental stairs most of all I want to increase my quality and length of life to be able to enjoy my babies and hopefully one day grand-babies(not anytime soon though). I don't want anything to cut my time here short because I want to see them grow, be happy and healthy productive adults and I'd like to enjoy the rest of my years with my husband till we are old and gray and cranky geezers threatening each other with our walking canes lol! Please friends continue to keep me and my family in your prayers in the days and weeks that lay ahead through the 2 week diet of no more than 20 grams of carbs that will have me turning into some evil woman lol  and the crankiness from feeling rough after surgery. Please pray that God's hand guides my surgeons hand and that I go through this with no major complications. Also my husband is seeking employment as well currently he is on terminal leave from the USAF he will be officially retired as of Sept.1st I know God has a plan for us! Well I am going to close for now I need sleep as tomorrow is Sunday and our final day of VBS been a great week with the kids and my church family I love them so much and I enjoy working with the kids at Wise Drive! Well good night and God Bless you all!!

Diary of An Angry Obese Woman

So sorry I haven't blogged in awhile things had been going smoothly however we have hit an hiccup and I'm not happy about it I am kinda angry! By the way feel free to share this blog because quite honestly I'm going to be very real, very open, very honest and very blunt with my feelings on the insurance industry and a few other aspects of this process and I want it to really reach out there! I'm done being the one that get's pushed around, sat aside and treated like a number like nothing more than just another person. I refuse to sit by and watch others live their lives yet not live my fully the way God intended it to be lived. I refuse to take no for an answer and I will not back down nor will I swallow the costs of my appts thus far. So you see somewhere along the line my PCM failed to put in my referral with Tri Care like a good PCM, we all goof but this goof is going to cost me money out of pocket to cover my appts thus far with the weight loss clinic if it don't get fixed and if it don't get approved then my surgery wont get approved! I did not make the choice to have RNY gastric bypass lightly this took me YEARS and yes I mean YEARS to finally commit myself to this! And when I commit myself to something I don't let go of it easily! I almost let this defeat me I almost let go and almost gave up but you know what...not this one sorry! I am sick of how the average perception of the average obese person! We aren't all lazy slobs sorry I know many obese brothers and sisters and they are not either lazy or slobs! Sometimes we have things wrong with us that contribute to our weight gain issues. So the insurance companies like to complain that us obese people cost them more and more money for our medication, well then dear insurance company how about you give us a freaking hand when we are asking for help to lose the weight instead of making it hard to get the help some of us might require????? Why put us through so much stress do you not realize stress contributes to weight gain as well??? So my PCM attempted to right her wrong and put in the referral and well Tri Care rejected it cause they want more information okay game on Tri Care challenged accepted! I will get this I will make it happen I will not give into defeat, I will not let them tell me no not without a fight! So they wanted more information that is why they denied my request so I have an appt with my doctor my PCM tomorrow morning and I have compiled quite the list as to why I should be seen at the weight loss clinic once that get's done then the weight loss clinic can resubmit my information granted I am kinda furious with the mishandling of them not ensuring they had the referral I assumed since they made my appts and knew what insurance I had they had approval for it, also I assumed that since they checked my records four times that they had it cause they didn't mention that being missing. They will hear about my thoughts about their poor office management at a later time first things first! Here is my list of health issues that aren't helped by my obesity and why I need to lose weight and why I DESERVE the help I want and am requesting!
To whom it may concern please find a list of past, present and possible future health issues that can be linked to my morbid obesity in no certain order:
1. Diagnosed with PCOS in 2008 while living in the UK was sent to an endocrinologist when I couldn't lose anymore weight. There should be a referral back in Tri Care somewhere as I was referred to an off base provider. I was told by that Endocrinologist that I had PCOS and that I'd never loose all the weight I needed to lose without weight loss surgery but yet I told him nah I wasn't buying that because I was not ready to commit myself to that drastic of measures, though now after years of trying and failing I am more than ready willing and able.
2. My hands, feet and ankle have sever swelling.
3. Major joint pain in my knees, hip,feet and also my back as well as numbness in my feet.
4. I have had on two different occasions cellulitus first case in 2002 latest case in 2012 which left me hospitalized for a whole week at Toumey hospital here in Sumter,SC the attending physican told me that if I'd lose some weight that it would lessen my chances of yet another occurrence.
5. 2001-2013 I have battled mild depression due to my obesity I am not happy and to be honest I have probably been depressed the vast majority of my life due to my weight but I have been medicated for it off and on between 2001-2013.
6. Feb 2012 I had kidney stones which it has been proven in studies that obesity doesn't help that issue either.
7. My family medical history alone should convince anyone that I need help before it get's worse than it has been both parents are diabetics, both parents have high blood pressure, high cholesterol and heart disease. This is my future should I not get help which will cost my insurance company dearly in medication and possible hospital stays should I not get the help I need and deserve!
8. 2012 I had my gallbladder my weight could have contributed to that as well.
9. I have really bad acid reflux/gerd water even gives me reflux.
10. I currently have a hiatal hernia as well which can be associated with obesity from what I have read online.
11. I have tried many many times to lose weight on my own, I could, and probably should write a book with all the knowledge I have gained through lots of reading, research and trying different things to lose weight.
12. My BMI is around 48.4 (that should say it all right there)
13. My thyroid has nodules and obesity has been linked to the cause of nodules top that with the fact I have a family medical history of hypo and hyperthyroidism.
14. Irregular menstrual cycles (which can be linked to the PCOS)
15.Vitamin D deficiency which can also cause some weight gain.
16. Fatty Liver awhile back I had bloodwork and my bilirubin was a little off and I was given and ultrasound which showed some fat around my liver.
17. Pre-cancerous cervical cells were found in 2001 and I was treated succesfully but that is even linked to obesity as well.
So many reason's that I should be approved...good valid reasons! I wont give up they are going to get so sick of me I remember the old adage the squeaky wheel get's the grease...I don't like complaining and I don't like having to fight but I will do what I have to do to ensure things go this way because I see it as a way to add years to my life, time with my husband, time with my children and my future grandchildren. I see it as my opportunity to live my life for a change I have hid almost 40 years behind this body, I have felt not accepted, not good enough, unworthy and I refuse to carry that another 40 years. People fail to see the real person underneath the fat...they don't see or know the tears I have cried because I didn't feel accepted or acceptable. They don't know how bad it hurt to be picked last because you were fat and all that drama that goes along with it. For once I want to know what it feels like to be just a normal person in a normal body and not looked at like a side show freak. This is my chance to make my life better and I wont let any stupid insurance company or any stupid error on the part of my PCM or on the part of the clinic stand in my way! I am going after what I deserve with a bull dog tenacity. I hope that if you are reading this and you ever find yourself in my position that you NEVER give up NEVER back down and don't take NO for an answer.

The Journey to Gastric Bypass

So I heard from my surgeon's office today, and I have my appointment to meet with him next Friday June 21st at 10AM before I head out of town to go to the beach to celebrate my 16 year old's birthday! This sure has been an interesting trip to get this far lots of hard work, appts. and I know once I have the surgery my work has only just begun! So after my appointment they will submit my paperwork and information to Tri Care and hopefully if this is God's will, it will be approved. If this does happen rather quickly as I have heard others say that their stuff got processed super fast I could have my surgery come July if it all goes well. Now that I have reached this point I have to say I'm excited and nervous! But I'm also glad that Wayne has retired now so he can be there for me although we are praying hard that the right job comes along soon for us as a family but I know in God's time and God has all my answers and he holds my every moment and there is nothing we can't face as a family with God by our sides! So keep me in your prayers, keep us all in your prayers! <3 Me

Updates All Around

Hi friends long time no blog took some blogging time off! I have a lot to update y'all on so sit down and buckle up! :-)  Life has been busy busy busy lately! School, hubby's retirement, gearing up to go home for a visit, gearing up for a weekend at the beach for my daughters 16th birthday just busy!  I had my final weigh in with my doctor on the 7th yay I had some loss not as big as the first two months but I knew that was going to be the case! I got my Psych Eval today the doctor handed over my letter of evaluation and I hand delivered my 3mths of weight management paperwork, my echocardiogram paperwork and my Psych evaluation they scanned it in and said I was good to go and someone would call me by Friday with my appt to meet with my surgeon and then they would submit my paperwork to Tri Care so hopefully I'll be approved for my RNY Bypass and I can lose all this weight!! I am super excited!!  I am hoping they will do it by July! Come on Tri Care be good to me lol!! My Psychologist said in his report that I was an excellent candidate for the surgery and he recommended it for me. He said I wasn't as crazy as others would like to believe ha ha ha!! He said that I internalized my anger too much (ha he should live with me those that know me know that I can tolerate a lot but once I reach a point I'm going to let you have it!!), He said that I was a perfectionist, That I also was very critical of myself (duh you think?) and that I down played my success. We all have issues so I didn't expect to come back all rosie happy!In other news my husbands retirement luncheon and his ceremony was this week! Yesterday was his retirement ceremony and after 20 years in the USAF he is out of there! It has been a crazy nine years almost for us (that's how long we have been married) me and the kids followed him where ever the USAF has sent him because where he was, was home. So yesterday during the ceremony I had to pin on his retirement pin it was to go on the left lapel of his blues I was afraid I'd get confused and pin it on the right because facing him my left is his right so I devised a plan to focus on his left ring finger where I placed that wedding ring on his finger 9 years ago this July 2nd, I got to thinking when I married him he was in the USAF I had to share his time and attention for the last almost 9 years I had to let him go and do his job, I have had to stand by his side and understand that it is service before self and we have sacrificed together but I put that ring on his left hand and he put the ring on my left hand almost nine years ago for better or worse and I knew exactly what I was getting into when I said I do...but yesterday I pinned on this retirement pin and to me it symbolized the end of the sharing it was like marrying him all over again and this time it isn't service before self it's a whole new marriage in my eyes as of yesterday I got my actual husband back, there will be no more deployments, no more TDY's, no more stresses of being mommy and daddy, no more missing out on special occasions there will be no more war for us God has gotten us this far safely and we have managed to keep our marriage bandaged up and together through the rough times...this is an interesting time of getting to know and learn what it feels like to have him be all mine and the kids! This is a time of so many different emotions with the whats next thought running through our minds whats next where do we go from here....God holds all those answers and the best answer I could find for us during this time of transition can be found in Jeremiah 29: 11-13 ¹¹ For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. ¹² Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. ¹³ You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I don't know his plans, but I know they are better than anything I can imagine God's plans are always the best ones!  So join me in praying for God's will for our family and that he will guide our footsteps as well embark on this next chapter of our lives and a job or jobs will become available for us so we can provide for our family! Pray that I keep an open mind that if things don't go in the direction I would like them to go in (closer to home) that I will graciously accept God's will and not become soured just because things didn't go my way. So that's what's going on with us! My daughter Adreanna will be turning 16 next week woo hoo growing on up on me! Kids are all home for the summer everyone is moving on up grade wise I have a 10th grader, 7th grader, 3rd grader and a 2nd grader!! That's all I have for now I'll let y'all know when I get my appt with the surgeon! <3 me

Week 14 day One FINALLY!!!!!!!

Good morning friends and family how are y'all this lovely Friday morning? Well this blog is going to be short and sweet as I have grocery getting to do, a pharmacy run and I have to clean clean clean as my daughter is having a good friend over tonight that she hasn't seen in forever!!! <3  Well today's weigh in was much better than the last three weeks I lost 4 whole pounds today thank you God because though I was trying to remain upbeat and focused I was starting to feel beaten by the scale even though I was wearing my 22's this week! So here's to not giving up and to holding on with bull dog tenacity. So I am down to 292 which is 33 pounds from my highest weight but 29 pounds from what my doctor has on record cause I started loosing weight before my first weigh in I figured why wait :-) Gosh almost out of the 290's yay me!! I am super happy to have 33 pounds behind me that's like half of my 6 year old wow that puts it in perspective lol!  So yay me! My final weigh in is coming up still haven't heard back from the Psychologist if I don't hear from him by Monday about my next appt I am going to contact him myself. I ain't planning on sitting on my paperwork I'm ready to get it all submitted and be on my way to getting my date for surgery. I'm not going to lie part of me is getting a wee bit anxious but I'll be praying on it and follow God's will for me. Well I'm off I have so much to get done later y'all! <3

Cleaning Out My Personal Closet....

 "And I will restore to you the years that the locust hath eaten, the cankerworm, and the caterpillar, and the palmerworm, my great army which I sent among you" (Joel 2:25).

Week 13 Day 1 (last Friday's Blog late again) ... HELP!!!!!!!

So yet another weigh in comes and goes and Lori has not lost another pound!! I am doing my absolute best to be positive reminding myself I haven't gained any of it back. I'm battling old snacking habits since my classes have started back and I'm an online student which leave me at my computer the majority of the time. Top that with I'm dealing with a lot of stuff going on within my home with all the kids here fixing to get out of school. My oldest and her husband are still living with us and I'm trying to plan my soon to be 16 year olds sixteenth birthday. I have felt disgruntled and displaced cause I don't have one bit of time to myself top that with being homesick and getting ready for hubby to retire can we say stressseeddd out???!!! Then add the fact that I have had a nasty case of home sickness going on I miss my family and my friends back in North Carolina the last nine years of moving and being away is catching up to me pretty badly lately as much as I hate to admit it I feel like I should just suck it up and that I'm being a big crybaby sometimes. But honestly I'm ready to fix up this house put it on the market or rent it out and just move closer to North Carolina. I'm just not feeling Sumter,SC anymore I don't have much here besides my kids and hubby and for nine years that has been enough for me, but I can't find a job here, the only time I communicate in person with other adults is at church on Sunday's. So you see my life is pretty much home, computer, family and it's getting old! I want to be closer to my parents, I want to be closer to my friends so if I want to go shopping or anything I can pick up the phone and be like hey lets meet up here or how about we get together and grill out or something but..nope don't have that here it gets so lonely! Okay the majority of this has not been weight loss related I'm sorry lol I digress into my stress! :-) I'm still breathing, I have a roof over my head and a family most importantly I have God I shouldn't complain. But hey if I lost a pound or two this coming Friday I'd be a lot happier!! :-D I did try on a pair of size 22's and they fit and there was a little extra room in it so maybe I'm redistributing my fat lol hee hee!! So that's my good news from 26's to 22's that's always nice yay Lori!! Well that's all I got till this coming Friday praying I'll have a loss my last weigh in with my doctor is coming up June 7th I'm still waiting for the Psychologist to call me back about going over my Psych Evaluation so we shall see he need not take too much time cause I want to get this surgery hopefully July/August with much luck!! Well that's all I have for today! I've whined enough! <3 Me

I've Played 20 Questions But Never 600 Questions!

So today was my Psych Eval with a doctor who does do the test that I needed for my RNY Gastric Bypass Surgery. The last one...ummm yeah that didn't work for me but thank God it was caught before it went up to Tri Care for approval or they would have rejected my request. So my appt was at 10:15AM this morning and I managed to be 15 minuets late thankfully the doctor was very understanding and still saw me would have totally stunk if he was like um no but I called him and told him I was a wee bit behind! I got there and he talked to me about 10 minuets maybe and then handed me a ton of questionnaires! Never in my life have I had to answer so many questions about my feelings, thoughts and other random tidbits! I bet you that there was probably 600 questions! Some of them were the same questions just worded differently yeah nice try tripping me up I'm on to you Doc your evil plot to trick me didn't work muuhaa haa haaa!! But anyways I started the massive amount of questionnaires at around 10:45AM I finished about 12:30PM and boy let me tell y'all I did not have a bite to eat this morning before I left all I had was coffee I was starving!! I had planned on stopping and getting me something from somewhere but the GPS failed to take me back into town where the stores were so I had to suffer till I got to Sumter and grabbed me a wrap which I scarfed down totally! So yes back to the Doctor, he wasn't hardly in his office he left me there all alone to fill out my paperwork he said well when your done just toss it on the front desk and I'll go over your assessments and then call you for an appt to go over the findings and work on the notes for your surgery. So one more appt with him and then one more weigh in then many prayer's that Tri Care will approve me! So well that's all I got for now my update of the day lol! I hope you all are doing well! <3

Week 12 Day 1.....slow going for real! (Sorry this one is a bit late)

Hi friends sorry my blog is behind just been busy busy busy! So this is the post that should have been posted on Friday and it never made it! Well Friday's weigh in came and there was nothing to report no loss no gain week before was only a pound so it's been slow going I knew it was going to slow down I mean I have lost almost 30 pounds in three mths time so for me just doing low carb and getting my walking in it isn't going to be large numbers like at first when I was giving up the soda and drinking more water. I do hope to see a loss this coming Friday though a couple of pounds would be awesome I'd like to be under 290 before my surgery whenever that's going to be! I am hoping and praying Tri Care does go ahead and approve it! I did find another Psychologist to do my psych eval  after all the drama from the other doctor not being able to do what I needed him to! And that appt is sat up for tomorrow at 10:15 AM so hopefully he'll find that I'm not as crazy as everyone thinks I am ha ha!  So after that I just have my 1 more weigh in at my doctors and then we'll submit my pre-op stuff to Tri Care and hopefully they will approve me and not make me jump through anymore hoops! Well that's all I got for now I'll update after my Psych Eval because I know everyone is going to want to know the verdict ....sane or insane that is the question...stay tuned for the answer! <3 Me

Week 11 Day 1.... One by One....

So today is the first day of week 11 and I did my weekly weigh in I am down 1 pound this week okay lets face it every week is not going to be a five pound week! Last week was a stall this week I got a pound and I'll take that pound and I'll be happy with it! I am offically down 29 whole pounds from my highest weight of 325 and I am down 27 pounds from my first ever weigh in with my doctor! So yay!!! Almost 30 whole pounds gone forever! So I have gone down from 325 to 296! My doctor wants me down another 8lbs by June 7th here's hoping it works out for me! Went for a walk with my hubby person tonight that was nice for a change! In other news yeah the "Psych Eval" has to be redone cause the other doctor I got sent to a big old waste of time. He didn't do the tests the wanted done and the surgeons office the one they refer us to don't accept Tri Care argh! So today after being totally furious almost to the point of tears I checked out the Tri Care website and found one that does do the test so now I'm waiting for my PCM to put in a referal lets see how long this takes argh! I know I know if this is THE only stumbeling block I encounter on this journey to RNY surgery I will be doing very well! So other than that no more weight loss news! That's pretty much all I have for that! But in personal happy news I have found quite a few of my cousin's on facebook lately and that has made me soo happy! I look forward to getting to know them! So I'm going to say good night as tomorrow I have some stuff planned! <3 Me

2nd Month Weigh In With My Doctor

So today was my month 2 weigh in with my doctor just one more weigh in to go and it will be all sent to my doctor in Columbia and we'll get an appt to see him and he'll go over things with me and we'll submit my paperwork to Tri Care and hopefully they will be like cool let's do this! So lets see my goal that the doctor sat for me was to lose 8 pounds this month I lost 11 pounds and she was thrilled with that!  I am too! So she wants another 8 pounds for next month as well that will be my third weigh in!  You know when you get ready to commit to something so big and so life changingg nerves can come in to play and this week they have after hearing of a young lady who passed away after she has the sleeve procedure done. It makes the danger of it more real, but I have to look at it from other aspects she had more than just the sleeve she had her gall bladder removed as well as a hernia repaired it was a lot going on there. Where as mine will just be the RNY bypass. I ask you though my friends please pray for this young lady's family this week she left behind a husband and three young daughters, pray for them and pray for her family and close friends as well as they deal with all of this. I spoke to my doctor about this because it has been on my mind alot since I heard about it and we talked about and she agreed with so much going on it added to the risk she reminded me that I didn't know the rest of her health history either. She told me that I was going into this with no big preexisting conditions like high blood pressure, heart disease, diabeties, she said my heart was in excellent condition from the echo cardiogram and she thought that I'd do just fine. It was a bit of reassurance I needed and this was coming from my PCM not the surgeon. I am still seeking God's guidance and will for me each step of the way through this process and if it's meant to be it will be, if it isn't well I guess I'll keep plugging away but I'm hoping this is God's will for me because I could so use this to help me lose all I need to lose so I can continue to be healthy, so I can live a long happy more enjoyable life with my family and friends and so I can be free to be me and not feel weighted down and judged for the outside and not the inside. Well that's all I've got tonight friends! Thanks for reading! <3 Me

Week 10 Day 1.....Slow and Steady Win's The Race....right?

Good morning friends! <3 Well it is the first day of week 10 and I did my weigh in this morning and have no weight loss to report but no weight gain to report either and considering I lost five pounds last week I'm perfectly okay with that and I totally expected that to happen so not even disappointed! Slow and steady wins the race right? I did get around to doing my measurements this past week and I was down 2 inches around my waist for the month, down 1 inch from my hips for the month and 1/2 an inch around my chest and 1 inch around my arm so that was excellent progress as well!!! Sorry I haven't updated my progress picture yet that is purely procrastination on my part! In other weight loss news I completed the portion of my Psychological Evaluation for my pre op requirements so I have now got almost all of my pre-op stuff finished:
Blood work check
Upper GI check
Echocardiogram check
Psych Eval check
All my classes check
All that is left is 2 more weigh in's for my three mths of weight management! I go for my 2nd weigh in for my weight management on the 7th of May and then just one more weigh in, in June then make sure all my paperwork is together, meet with the surgeon, submit my stuff to Tri Care and pray they approve it from what I hear it takes about 10-12 day's for the approval process so please pray that they go ahead and approve me so I don't have to jump through anymore hoops I'd prefer to have my surgery in July while the kids are home so I don't have to worry with getting them to and from school cause Wayne will be starting a new job by the time school starts back with much luck also be in prayer for us in that aspect of our lives. Wayne will retire from the USAF officially 1st of Sept. but he will be on terminal leave mid June. So it would be great if my surgery could happen right before he started a new job so he'd be here to help but also he needs a  job because we do have a family to support and  maybe after my surgery I can find a job I had been looking but haven't found anything yet sadly. And since I started the process of getting the ball rolling on the RNY I haven't been looking as hard though I do have a few prospects of freelance writing for online magazines, blogs and even some more lyrical stuff for music which does excite me because I do love to write especially music aspect!! So that's what's going on around here this week and tonight we shall celebrate our son's 8th birthday today gosh time passes so quickly I can't believe that it was 8 years ago I was laying in a hospital bed snuggling one of the most cutest little boys I have ever laid my eyes on! One of the biggest reasons I want this surgery is to ensure I am healthy and am around to finish raising my babies and so that I can enjoy them so please pray for me and my family! Anyway that's all I got for now people!! I'll check back in probably on May 7th after my appt with my doctor for my 2nd weigh in! And this picture is of my baby boy that I was blessed with 8 years ago today what a sweetheart!!!

 

Week 9 Day 1.....Adios 300's hello 200's NEVER again!

Well it's that time of the week again my friends my weekly weigh in (new pictures coming soon when my child gets home from school and can take them for me cause today is the day I would update my progression pictures)! Well today I am down 5 whole pounds from last week!!! I am out of the 300's thank you God for walking with me through this cause I know it is you that keeps me strong as I face all of my food issues! So let's look back a month ago...
Last month I weighed in at 306
Today I weighed in at 297
that is 9 pounds for this month that is nothing to sneeze at that is pure awesomeness!!! From my highest weight of 325 pounds down to 297 that's a total of 28 pounds gone FOREVER AND EVER AMEN! From the time I started seeing my doctor I was 321 at my first weigh in so that puts me down 24 pounds! From my first progression picture I was 323  so that's 26 pounds gone! I'll need to do my measurements later as well I'll include that with my updated progression picture but I am so happy to have made my goal this week I was just aiming for 299 but to go all the way to 297 yessss it made me soo happy! I now am hoping to be under 290 when I go for my surgery pending insurance approval, and pending my 2 other doctor weigh in's and my psych eval! My Psych eval is on Tuesday May 30th at 10:20 so if some reason you don't hear from me the rest of the day on Tuesday well one can assume he decided to have me locked up bahh haa haa! Nah I'm not crazy regardless to what some think ;-) My 2nd weigh in with my doctor is on May 7th then I'll have one more in June then I am going to make sure that my weight loss center in Columbia has all they need to submit to Tri Care and wait on their approval for my surgery and they best approve it cause I have been being a super good girl! I can't wait I am so excited to start this next chapter of my life, I am so excited to be able to do so many things I haven't ever been able to do before and more importantly to feel confident and secure in my own self. Please pray with me that the next few things go smoothly and that I get the approval from my insurance company I don't want to have to fight with them over this but I will! I reassure everyone that it took me a long time to feel comfortable and feel like I could do this, the choice for Gastric Bypass Surgery wasn't made on a whim I took my time, I am well educated on the surgery both from reading and from the seven friends I have who have had it as well and no it's not a peer pressure thing bahh haa haa no I'm not doing it cause all my friends did it, no if they jumped off a bridge I wouldn't jump off with them lol watching them go through this, watching them do it and it work for them and seeing them showed me I didn't have to be afraid and that I could do it and that I could A. Believe in myself B. Succeed at losing this weight and C. feel good about the choice I made cause I know God has walked me through every step I have gone through so far I have prayed and prayed over this choice so I know and I am certain that this is the right choice for me. God has brought so many wonderful changes in my life over the last few years and I feel this is just another one a chance to live life as I always should have fearlessly, courageously without being scared of being judged because of my weight and not being held back because of it either! I am excited about life and I am excited on the new life that is waiting for me post op! Well y'all have a wonderful and belssed day!! <3 Me

Goal Setting...Ain't Nuttin' To It But To Do It!

Good morning friends! Last week's weigh in only left me a few pounds to till I'm out of the 300's forever and ever! So this week I'm making it my personal goal to put that under my feet and to be done with the 300's by Friday's weigh in! Things are going well but this week I am going to focus on getting these few pounds off and reaching my goal by Friday I am going to make sure every day ever ounce of water I need get's taken in and make sure I'm doing some form of activity every day! If I reach that goal I will already be at the goal the doctor sat for me for my May 7th weigh in but hey if I lose a few extra pounds past it, it's all good!! I am going to do that cabbage soup diet with my hubby this week so between being active and that I should drop those few pounds and probably a few more! I think goals are great to set it's always nice to know what your aiming for even nicer to know that by Friday I will no longer be in the 300's and I will never see that ever again! It's nice to know that! On Friday I'll close that chapter of my weight issues no more 300's ever again!! I'm looking even more so forward to saying adios to the 200's but I know it'll take time but I'll get there! Psych eval is coming up next week I'll be so happy to cross off yet another thing from my pre-op to do list! Each thing I cross off my to do list just means I'm that much closer yay! I so can't wait till they submit all my insurance company and hopfully get my surgery date hopefully they will approve it! I'm going to update all my food diary today as well so I'll have all that together if they need it got a nice binder full of information! :-) Well time for me to get these babies to school! Hope you all have a blessed day! <3 Me